What beauty beholds

After watching " 200 Pounds Beauty", I have a different definition towards beauty. One may not be very pretty in her outlook but can be very attractive in the way she presents herself. One may be very gorgeous but look so disgusting when she starts doing her own poses.

I used to think that pretty = having nice features + hot figure + sweet amature connections. As I grew older, I realised that all of the above are just purely untrue facts. I still remembered when I was young, say Secondary school, 吳君如 was classified as "ugly", but what the hell has she become now! She's a hot mama you know and gracious, SHE IS DAMN PRETTY IN PERSON LOR! I may not have seen her in real but my friends did and they were crazy over her! She's just so drop dead pretty and comical.

Also, I have changed a different perception towards plastic surgery. I believe that a person can be real demoralised and hurt when the whole world just couldn't spare her/him a second of attention just because she's ugly/fat etc. I used to be fat, yes VERY FAT. The whole world were talking right in front of me that I would need to have customised clothing because I am too fat, no guys will go after me because I am too fat, I looked disgusting dirty and sweaty because I am too fat. Those hurt me quite a bit especially when I have friends who kept saying that I am fat and they are lean. I don't deny the fact that plastic surgery once flashed across my mind.

" I want to do lipo-lipo-lipo-lipo" these flashed numerous times, circulating in my brains. My parents weren't supportive towards my thinking obviously cause it is so damn dangerous. They were rather on the positive sides, asking me to do exercises and cutting down on my diet. My parents even brought the whole family to the stadium just to exercise with me, though it didn't really worked for me because I ate even more after the extreme runnings. I can't even remember how I lost my weight throughout the years. I only knew I cut down on my intake of food, I eat what I want and I try not to over eat. Sometimes I still do overeat lah but I control most of the time. I had dengue fever in 2005 and that cause me to lose some pounds during the stay cause I've got no appetite at all. The rest got to do with my family genes. My mum's a mother of 4 but weigh 50kg with 27 inch waist , my Dad weigh 67kg with 33 inch waist, my sister weigh 40kg with 24 inch waist , my 5 years younger brother weigh 54kg with 28 inch waist and my youngest brother weigh 68kg with 29 inch waist. SEE~ I TOLD YOU IT RUNS IN THE GENE! My dad used to be so skinny during his young days and even when I was in primary school but my mum's cooking got better and better and there goes his weight :P

So , I guessed its partially cause of my genes that I got slimmed down. I'm still trying to cut down some weight though >.<

我愛自己，更愛我的老公和家人～！